we make believe every day
we make our lives seem like they’re still worth living
when we find out in the end
it’s only us that we’ve been kidding
just another stupid drama
that no one notices but you
and you only take an interest when
there’s nothing else to do

Can I just go back to this day? That was one of the best days ever. Bayside was amazing and I was look’n good ;)

Cut, cut, cut, cutting myself down to pieces
Too hard on myself it would seem
That everyone could see my self-worth but me
I’ll take a stand devise plans
Figure it out
I’ll take my cuts and stitch them up

Take this razor sign your name across my wrist so everyone will know who left me like this.

What would you need me for? you’ve got friends galore, and all you’ve ever been to me is a waste of time and nothing more.

Driving around aimlessly listening to bayside and singing along at the top of my lungs.

God it feels so good.

The hardest things to say are the words that mean the most
So I’ll bite my tongue till it bleeds and I doubt you’ll even know
The easiest things to fake are feelings to fool someone else
And I’ve been tricked for so long by you that I spent these last few months in my own hell

I swear, I can’t stand this place
and whats becoming of me
the longer i have to stay.
I want to
think all unthinkable things
and say what I shouldn’t say
I need a change

Bands I would like to see live
  • No Doubt (again)
  • Bayside (again)
  • Tokyo Police Club
  • Swear and Shake
  • LaDispute
  • The Wonder Years 
  • The First Aid Kit
  • The Donnas (again)
  • The XX
  • Circa Survive 

And like a million more that for some reason aren’t coming to mind right now. 

I lived too fast and I loved too much and I’ll die too young,
but I chose this cup that I drank from.
Knew what I was getting into.
But I couldn’t let out what I had to keep in.
I’m ashamed of myself and unspeakable sins,
that I’ve committed and
I’ve made mistakes,
but I’ll find my way.
There’s no explanation for,
the things I’ve failed at before.


I swear, I can’t stand this place
and whats becoming of me
the longer i have to stay.
I want to
think all unthinkable things
and say what I shouldn’t say
I need a change

With that said, I’m leaving today
I got some concrete ideas and they’ve been paving my way
towards all the
downtowns and urban decay
theres so much life in these bricks
theres so much buildings can say

a new experienced me
will be coming back on rusted wheels and bloody knees