You mean that much to me
And it’s hard to show
Gets hectic inside of me
When you go
Can I confess these things
Well I don’t know
Embedded in my chest
Hurts to hold
I couldn’t spill my heart
My eyes gleam looking in from the dark
I walk out in stormy weather
Hold my words, keep us together
Steady walking but bound to trip
Should release but just tighten my grip
I’ve been working on
So I’ll tell the truth
I’ll give it up to you
And when the day come
It will have all been fun
We’ll talk about it soon
The hardest things to say are the words that mean the most
So I’ll bite my tongue till it bleeds and I doubt you’ll even know
The easiest things to fake are feelings to fool someone else
And I’ve been tricked for so long by you that I spent these last few months in my own hell
I swear, I can’t stand this place
and whats becoming of me
the longer i have to stay.
I want to
think all unthinkable things
and say what I shouldn’t say
I need a change
I said, “Be strong and hold on
You won’t feel this way forever”
But I am the weakest of all and my advice
I think I saw you in my sleep, darling,
I think I saw you in my dreams you were
Stitching up the seams on every broken promise
That your body couldn’t keep,
I think I saw you in my sleep.
I lived too fast and I loved too much and I’ll die too young,
but I chose this cup that I drank from.
Knew what I was getting into.
But I couldn’t let out what I had to keep in.
I’m ashamed of myself and unspeakable sins,
that I’ve committed and
I’ve made mistakes,
but I’ll find my way.
There’s no explanation for,
the things I’ve failed at before.